Monday, August 06, 2007
emo stuffs.if you peeps want to read you read,if you are not interest,don't read!and don't you ever comment on this post.if you are going to say smtg,you better fk off.idk how the heck i'm gonna talk to you,
all the uncomfortable feeling and stuffs.
so,i'll just blog this down and i know you'll read this real soon.
okay,
idk wth's happening.
it just doesn't make any sense to me.
it's like whenever i feel that you are not okay,i'll ask you if you are.
and you'll just say yes.what more can i say?i just hope you really are.
other times,you tell me you are pissed/sad/whatever
and when i ask you what happened,you'll only tell me the least impt stuffs.
i'll never know your biggest/most impt/whatever probs
and i respect your decision cause i know some things are just too personal and stuff.
but i reckon your friends know more stuffs than i do.
and now you say there's no one to talk to,to hug when you need to cry.
i seriously don't know what the heck is going on.
then for the past few week we really haven't been talking.
it's always just hello/what are you doing/bye.
there're lots of things i want to say,to tell you but you are never free.
you're always busy with school/hw/assignments.
and i can't blame you for that cause after all sch stuffs always come first.
then you're always online for a freaking short time and my fone bill's pretty high alrd.
that makes it almost impossible for us to talk much alrd.
also,i've been thinking the whole afternoon/evening
and i think maybe you are right
i think i don't want to have anything to do with you anymore.
cause i want to move on.
i don't want to be stuck in this situation forever.
being friends is like almost impossible.
it's going to be like the whitley days,the weird feeling we felt.
i think this time the feeling is going to be so much stronger.
it's like i'm alrd having a prob trying to talk to you online.
maybe we still can talk online next time,but i need some time out before we start talking again.
cause really,i'm still not ready to talk to you yet.
and i really really really don't feel like coming back.
i've lost all my reasons to come back.
i just feel like staying here forever.
i can smhow imagine what's going to happen if we were to meet up in sep/oct
it's going to be like idk what to say,what to do.
or i can just say it's gonna be/feel weird
and i'm pretty sure i'm gonna be damn uptight.
so forgive me if i were to be MIA when i'm back.
i'm kinda feeling real bad right now typing all this.
and i think you are feeling the same thing as i'm
even though you are acting as if nth happened/you are alright
cause you are always wearing a smile or at least hide your sorrows even when you are dying inside.
i still got a lot more to say.
but i guess i won't go on anymore.
it's getting a lil too touchy.
oh yea.
just want you to know that i'm not mad at you/hate you whatever shit.
i'm just freaking confused/lost.
i can wait and i feel like waiting.
but maybe i should just do what you said.
i just want to speak my mind.
yea.
i guess that's all.
& this is the last time we are gonna talk like that
everything's over and we shouldn't be looking back anymore.
so,i'm moving on.so are you.
take care and goodbye.
<3
Once again,Batman saved the day!
